PenofthePeople

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I am lost within a sea of myself

 

My self-doubt and self-issues turn me about as the ocean of thoughts

circle me into a maelstrom of benevolent indifference towards my inner self

 

I am drifting

Further from me further from where I need to be

further from the me that I need to be

 

I am drowning

In the darkness of the waves the endless crashing of hate

and the empty cravings that gurgle within the bowels of my caves

 

I am sinking

Deeper into the abyss of self-hate inflicting

this unneeded wounds

un-tailored emotions

bubbling volcanic rage towards my self

when all I have is my self

why don’t I need myself

when my only anchor is my self

 

I am forgotten underneath the sea foam. 

Tides of loathing